“I ended up having pre-eclampsia and delivering my twins at 34 weeks.  It was one of the hardest days of my life.  I was going to have a c-section which I was totally fine with.  I knew from day one I was probably going that route and never felt bad about it or cared what people said.  No one should ever look down on someone for having a c-section.  Everyone’s birth process is unique and their choice end of story.  Well unfortunately they couldn’t get the spinal in so I had to be put out.  I cried from the minute they told me until I was out and started crying again when I woke up.  I missed the birth of my daughters and to top it off couldn’t see them when I woke up.  I was on a magnesium drip for the pre-eclampsia and was not allowed out of bed.  My babies were in the NICU and I couldn’t go to them.  I spent 12 hours crying and trying to pump for them until I was finally allowed to visit the NICU.  It was bittersweet.  My one daughter Sarah was doing great and I actually got to hold her.  But my other daughter Bethany needed help to breathe and couldn’t tolerate touch well so I was only allowed to look at her.  It’s hard to see your baby and not be able to touch them.  It was an extremely emotional time but after 10 days they finally came home.”